Appreciation

So the person I chose to write about that I appreciate is my boyfriend/best friend Clayton. I know it sounds odd that I wouldn't pick someone else but hes been there for me through a lot and I don't think I would be where I am today without him. Before we were just bestfriends and I was dating at the time his bestfriend Toby, which was a huge mistake. I was headed down the wrong path and dating Toby was just making it worst on my self. He made my problems just 10 times worst then they needed to be, but I let him do that to me. And I don't know how much Clayton told me to just leave Toby, because he wasn't any good for me, and Clayton could see how unhappy I was. Finally Clayton had told me all the things that Toby was doing behind my back(which I already kinda had a idea about), but hearing it from someone that I trusted more then anything just made it that much more real. It came like a smack to the face, like how could I be that stupid to stick around and watch this happen and not do anything. I had always liked Clayton a lot, more then a friend, but its one of those things where you dont think the other person likes you, so you back off. Well I should of just went for it and told him I liked him a long time before. Anyway, after me and Toby broke up, I started to hang out with Clayton a whole lot more. I slowly fell more and more for him. And I finally told him how I felt and he felt the same way. So we srtarted dating and I couldn't of been happier. There isn't a day that he doesn't make me smile:). And thats how it should be. He has helped me come a long way. I don't do half of the things I use to, I care about my grades now, I dont hang out with people that are just going to get me in trouble, and my self esteem is way higher then it use to be. He made me feel like I actually mattered in life. He made me smile again, and actually care about my life. He tells me everyday that Im beautiful and how much he loves me. He knows all of my flaws and my mistakes and my past, and still excepts me for who I am. He doesnt try and change me in anyway.When Im sad and crying he always finds a way to make it better. He takes care of me when Im sick, he supports all of my choices and doesnt tell me to change them in anyway. I know that with him in my life I'll never have to feel like Im alone, and yes I have my family that will always be there for me, but he makes me not feel alone. I appreciate everything he does for me and I wouldnt change it for the world. And I know that Ill never be alone with him in my life. He helped me out of a "dark place" at the time and Im nothing like I use to be, and I appreciate that from him. I couldn't be happier in life since I have him:)


End of appreciation rant, on a good note:)<3